on shit, mysteries and god

I have been sleeping a lot lately.

It seems that the old habits have returned. I stay awake until after five, and then I sleep a whole bunch. Only this time, I have no writing project, I'm not going through a period of deep pondering or such. I simply roam about, trying to think of something.

Sensory deprivation is interesting, try it out sometime.

Was having a dream not too long ago, but it's gone now.

Coffee is being made.
[even coffee doesn't make me want to be awake,
everything just moves quicker so it's easier to take]
Don't I sound like a big lump of emo.

The TV is talking about pouring custard. Little man lies on the floor, and Sir William hangs his head in shame. Mike is fiddling with a lego man, and I'm sitting here, trying to find something to be interested in.

Yesterday we discussed Stonehenge, how the hell a bunch of tiny druids managed to move huge slabs of stone 500 miles. The bermuda triangle, how shit just disappears there - boats, planes, people. At the bottom, there is a weird mineral that they can detect, a mineral that has not been discovered, but they can't get to it. The egyptian pyramids, and how the biggest one is on the direct center of the world. The Aztec ruins, those huge symbols on the ground that you can only see when you fly a plane over it. Easter Island, and the hundreds of statues, with only the heads poking up, looking similar, and with no artist flaws, and no signs that any humans were ever there.

God once existed. This I can now know. In the big bang, slowly giving pieces of it's energy to the universe, to the planets, to Earth, To amoeba, to plants, animals, people. Like a parent, it infused us with it's qualities, and like a parent, it had to leave us on our own, to make our own way. Jesus was likely the last clue, before God sent us on our own. An example of how we should be. And now God only exists in everything around us, inside us - not above or beyond us, not controlling us.

I don't think God would only have one planet-child, I think he had many.

Anyway. I'm out.

Allysia